she's heard some of this story before, but she didn't really understand. she's too much of an edgelord to understand minding if people see your face. but the rest of it fits a little more. she knows what it feels like, to be used, to only be worth what others need from you.
she doesn't want to dignify these memories with conversation, but they are still stuck in this theater.]
[For watching it, most of all. It was obviously supposed to be a private matter, and... yeah, if he were her, he wouldn't want that getting around, either.]
... I suppose my question from before must have sounded like nonsense. About unmaking a chimera...
It wasn't nonsense. But for obvious reasons, it is not something I would ever set out to do. The damage cannot be undone. All I can do is make something out of it using this power.
[it's hard to talk about this, but it's important to say this part, too.]
I do not see it the way they did. An acceptable transaction or a necessity - no. They were frightened, and they made a cowardly, monstrous decision. But it was done.
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hardrocklife) wrote2023-02-05 03:34 pm
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she's heard some of this story before, but she didn't really understand. she's too much of an edgelord to understand minding if people see your face. but the rest of it fits a little more. she knows what it feels like, to be used, to only be worth what others need from you.
she doesn't want to dignify these memories with conversation, but they are still stuck in this theater.]
...Who was he to you?
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A leader and mentor... a man I once served proudly, and admired deeply...
... And besides that, he was my only living family. My great-grandfather, by blood.
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[the notion that he was turned into this by a mentor and a member of him family, who he thought cared for him - that does hurt.
she takes a deep breath, as though deciding what else to say, and then a memory of her own plays, instead.]
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Is that... what you meant before?
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...I don't care to have that information plastered about as entertainment.
But yes, that is what I meant. I am a construct, made of all of that.
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[For watching it, most of all. It was obviously supposed to be a private matter, and... yeah, if he were her, he wouldn't want that getting around, either.]
... I suppose my question from before must have sounded like nonsense. About unmaking a chimera...
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[it's hard to talk about this, but it's important to say this part, too.]
I do not see it the way they did. An acceptable transaction or a necessity - no. They were frightened, and they made a cowardly, monstrous decision. But it was done.
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I suppose that's the only reasonable way to look at it, given the circumstances.
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Yes, well. I hope I can count on your silence, as you can count on mine.
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